New Painting

Well it's been a whole week since my baby girl was PTS. It's gone so quickly, yet so slowly too. I miss her more than anything. The house is so quiet and the smallest thing can set me off crying for her. 

There was a chicken breast left over from last night's tea, and for a second I thought I'd chop it up for Ruby, then I remembered there will be no more left over food going to her. In fact this has happened all week. I miss her greeting us with her tail and bottom wagging from side to side when we come home. I miss her little face looking up at me from the bottom step, waiting for me to come downstairs. I miss lying on the sofa, with her basket next to me and me stroking her beautiful silky ears.

Yesterday, I had an appointment at the Audiology clinic, to have a new hearing aid because Ruby chewed my old one up. I began to explain what had happened and started crying. The girl was so lovely. She told me she had a Jack Russell that was 16 years old, and she'd had him since she was 15. She said she didn't know how she would be able to cope with losing him, but knew it couldn't be too far off given his age. It's lovely to have a dog but to lose one is the most painful thing. 

This morning, I took a full, unopened bag of dry food back to Pets at Home for a refund. If it had been a small bag I wouldn't have bothered, but it cost almost £40 and none of my family wanted it for their dogs so back it went. It was my favourite lady serving and she dealt with the refund with no quibble. She was utterly lovely and understanding when I started crying yet again.

This afternoon, we went to my Brother and Sister in Laws' house for coffee and scones and I was greeted by a very excited little Henry. He's a lovely little dog and his cuddles were just what I needed. Another lot of tears were shed talking about my Rooroo. It's all therapeutic to let it out. I will learn to live without her being here eventually, but at the moment it's so raw. 

Anyway, I've decided I'm going to get back into my painting again and did a little one today. I'm very proud of the Blue tit, which was from one of my own photos. I want to study every day, to learn enough to be able to paint any of my photos. I will get there! 

                                                    Reference photo for the Blue Tit